Friday, December 9, 2011
I found it funny that in the first few discussions about this class we avoided the topic of the sadomasochistic element of "Confessions of a Mask". this I found interesting because I did not know how to approach it myself. So I avoided it. Kochan is obviously not a right boy. At the beginning he is more relatable but as he becomes more and more involved in his twisted fantasies he becomes less familiar to the reader. His fantasies about the violence are scary to me but the fact that he does not act on these and go all "Dexter" on everyone is comforting to me. At least he realizes that although these may be his desires he cannot do them because these desires are wrong. That is why the hiding is partially comforting to me. A say partially because the other side of me is scared because if there where people whose desires where to disembowel for sexual pleasure I would love for them to be open with this so that they might find proper psychiatric help. At this point they pose a threat to society and themselves. But, Kochan is both a comforting and discomforting character in more ways than this. The fact that he rejects himself on a daily bases is comforting when you know what goes on in his head but discomforting when you know what this does to him.